On Pregnancy (post 1)
Well, now that I'm almost 17 weeks pregnant, I guess I have to face the reality of being pregnant and talk about it a little bit.
I parked in the "Expectant Mothers" parking place at Whole Foods today (right down front, next to the handicapped space), and I must say that it was nice. I had the carpets cleaned yesterday and made C move all of the furniture back into place without lifting a finger to help. That was nice too.
But, in general, I don't much care for pregnancy. Being sick for the first 12 weeks didn't help much. But now I'm not sick (well, most of the time...I did toss my WATER yesterday morning...how annoying), and I keep waiting for the "burst of energy" that so many people keep telling me about. It hasn't shown up yet. Now, I do realize that being pregnant at 41 probably makes most of what is "annoying" to most people painful for me, but I also think that I've always been sensitive to hormone and chemical changes in my body, so this set of changes is bound to be upsetting me. :)
Here's what I don't like. My legs hurt and I already can't wear any cute shoes. I'm tired most of the time. Okay, I'm tired all of the time. I have to cut out my tequila. I have to modify my yoga poses (and sometimes in the first trimester, I had to skip it all together for fear of vomiting on the teacher). I can't breathe properly. My back doesn't like me to hold Zi for more than about 5 or 10 minutes at a time. I'm more grouchy than normal. And I've gained 11 pounds already.
Now this last one is the most interesting (in terms of self analyzing). I have a REAL problem with getting fat. My clothes do not fit, my body is already straining under the extra weight, and, if I'm honest, I just don't want to be fat. I know that I've not been a skinny person for nearly 25 years, but being really big is something that is bothering me. I have to really look closely at my own ideas about my body. What is it that is SO upsetting? Is it the loss of a "sexually attractive" hour glass shape? Is it the bodily connection that pregnancy has with motherhood (will I now be DEFINED as a mother)? I don't know, but I will be interested to see how I handle the next 5 months.
On the other hand, I love eating. So, there is that. I had a half dozen cookies today, so hey, what am I complaining about?
:)
In general, I'm doing well. I just don't really like the feeling of being highjacked -- especially by a little boy! :)
I think too, that because I'm not 15 or 25 or 35, this will (naturally) be harder on my body. So, I just have to suck it up and play the hand that was dealt. I'm trying to do that (believe it or not, that is one of the things that "blogging" helps me do -- DEAL with it). But, there is a reason that we are not fertile until we are 60.
I'm thinking a lot about names. I haven't settled on any yet. Here are a couple of pics of the big sister to be:
I parked in the "Expectant Mothers" parking place at Whole Foods today (right down front, next to the handicapped space), and I must say that it was nice. I had the carpets cleaned yesterday and made C move all of the furniture back into place without lifting a finger to help. That was nice too.
But, in general, I don't much care for pregnancy. Being sick for the first 12 weeks didn't help much. But now I'm not sick (well, most of the time...I did toss my WATER yesterday morning...how annoying), and I keep waiting for the "burst of energy" that so many people keep telling me about. It hasn't shown up yet. Now, I do realize that being pregnant at 41 probably makes most of what is "annoying" to most people painful for me, but I also think that I've always been sensitive to hormone and chemical changes in my body, so this set of changes is bound to be upsetting me. :)
Here's what I don't like. My legs hurt and I already can't wear any cute shoes. I'm tired most of the time. Okay, I'm tired all of the time. I have to cut out my tequila. I have to modify my yoga poses (and sometimes in the first trimester, I had to skip it all together for fear of vomiting on the teacher). I can't breathe properly. My back doesn't like me to hold Zi for more than about 5 or 10 minutes at a time. I'm more grouchy than normal. And I've gained 11 pounds already.
Now this last one is the most interesting (in terms of self analyzing). I have a REAL problem with getting fat. My clothes do not fit, my body is already straining under the extra weight, and, if I'm honest, I just don't want to be fat. I know that I've not been a skinny person for nearly 25 years, but being really big is something that is bothering me. I have to really look closely at my own ideas about my body. What is it that is SO upsetting? Is it the loss of a "sexually attractive" hour glass shape? Is it the bodily connection that pregnancy has with motherhood (will I now be DEFINED as a mother)? I don't know, but I will be interested to see how I handle the next 5 months.
On the other hand, I love eating. So, there is that. I had a half dozen cookies today, so hey, what am I complaining about?
:)
In general, I'm doing well. I just don't really like the feeling of being highjacked -- especially by a little boy! :)
I think too, that because I'm not 15 or 25 or 35, this will (naturally) be harder on my body. So, I just have to suck it up and play the hand that was dealt. I'm trying to do that (believe it or not, that is one of the things that "blogging" helps me do -- DEAL with it). But, there is a reason that we are not fertile until we are 60.
I'm thinking a lot about names. I haven't settled on any yet. Here are a couple of pics of the big sister to be:
posted by perrykat at
5:12 PM
1 Comments:
Sooooo cute post. Thanks for sharing ur personal feelings.
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