F*&K

I spent the past few weeks feeling that I had gone beyond the edge...that I was sitting on a little mound of dirt sticking out of the rockface looking backward at the cliff I'd just fallen over.

Today, just as I look up at the edge to figure out how to climb back up, I found that there was never anything beneath me at all...I'd been falling...and now I see the ground rising hard and fast.

Sometimes the universe needs to test our limits.

Sometimes we fail the test.

Maybe writing this made it better.

But I don't think so.