Two more days, and I'd love to kill the little ba$*(#ds

So, I know I only have two days left with this teaching gig, but I have to vent.

WTF???

I have students missing finals for no good reason and asking if they can make it up.  Students emailing me after missing 85 percent of the semester asking if they can now do all of the work in one week.  Students wanting extra credit...

You HAVE to be kidding me.  Classes ended a week ago.

I refuse to raise a child who believes she is to be given SPECIAL treatment.  The little ...

Okay, okay.  48 hours...

Habit

I need to get into the habit of writing here.

Of course, this is finals week, so don't expect anything to really change in the next 5 days.  I'm hoping next week.

So, here is the quick update.

We leave for China on May 13th, receive Zi into our lives on May 17th, and have various appointments until May 28th.  We leave China on the 29th.

We are really excited.  I'm trying to stay in the present moment.  HA, who am I kidding?

I can't wait!!  But, I'm waiting.  "the butter melts out of habit, the toast isn't even warm"

What Yoga Couldn't Teach Me...

There is no doubt in my mind that I spent the last five years learning to loosen my grip.  Yes, that's right, the control freak is learning that she really has no control.

After talking to the adoption agency today, we still don't have a date for our travel.  There doesn't seem to be any problems; it just seems that the universe hasn't quite taught us enough patience yet.   I am still learning.

I tell myself, that this is meant to teach me the patience I will need to be a good parent.  So, Zi, there you are in Guangdong and here I am in Montgomery, and the universe says we are not quite ready for each other this month.  Next month, I should have learned all the patience I will need for the next chapter of both of our lives.

Waiting

You would think that after almost 5 years, I would be okay with waiting.  You would think that I would have patience that Tibetan monks would understand.

But, I must really be American because I am not happy with the waiting on my travel dates.  I want to know WHEN I get to go to China and meet Zi.  What is the bleeping problem?

Well, I think the bleeping problem is in more red tape.  Because we now fall under the Hague convention rules (because we let our paperwork go out of date and last year had to update everything with the newer forms and procedures), there are more t's to cross.  In addition, there is a trade show in Guangzhou the last two weeks of April which means they can't make some of our necessary appointments until after the end of April.  We could still leave before the end of the month, but all of our legal stuff will have to happen in May.

Still, while I know all of this in a reasonable part of my brain, I want to know WHEN we are going [she stomps her feet like a petulant child]!

But, I do not know yet.